What Now?

I've been trying to get motivated for several months now to no avail. I'm bigger than I was when I started this blog, bigger than I've ever been. When I look in the mirror, I don't recognize my body as mine. I've lost site of my goals and to be honest I'm not sure why. The reasons for me where so authentic; I wanted to lead a healthier lifestyle. Initially, I made dramatic changes. I stopped using cleaning products with harmful chemicals; I stopped getting my hair relaxed; I switched to organic foods I purchased from Farmers Markets. What happened to all that momentum? Although I continued a relatively chemical free lifestyle, fatty foods gradually crept back in and the holidays really took a toll on any hint of a diet.

I am an expert at losing weight. I have done it several times, up to 25 pounds at least 3x in my 28 years. The problem, is each time, I can it back plus 5-10 extra to boot. I just found out that this what is means to be a yo-yo dieter.

So...what now? Stay fat? Not a chance. Its quite uncomfortable. I waddle rather than walk now. I am out of breathe from a just a few steps. When I sit, my stomach rest disgustingly on my lap. I can't take a picture that will disguise my double chin. My poor eating habits are apparent on my pimple laden face and dry, brittle coils. It is way past time to take charge of my health. I've checked out some books from the library (yes, I have a library card and I use it). I'm going to do some reading on some popular diets and decide what will be easiest for me to follow; what will allow life to happen; what will be most likely to help me both lose weight and keep it off!

So here I go again and this time, I plan to be much more diligent in tracking my progress, set-backs and frustrations. This blog will be literally, my rantings, and soon, I will be a former fat girl!